"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others." Philippians 2:3-4
According to Beth Moore's daughter, the Greek word for humility in the NIV means, "the quality of not being overly impressed by a sense of one's self-importance". That's beautiful to me for a few reasons. First, it pinpoints exactly why I'm uncomfortable when people act like there's something special about me that caused God to heal me. I do think He chose me for this adventure for specific reasons, but it's not because I'm special. Or at least no more special than anyone else who seeks His face. The other reason is because I've had a big problem throughout the past few weeks with wanting to put myself above others. On some level I started feeling like I deserved the things I wanted, even though those things interfered with what other people wanted. I was getting a really bad attitude and harboring a grudge when I wasn't getting my way. So, if anyone sees me getting frustrated by a change of plans or something, please ask me just how impressed I am with myself...but maybe do it while standing out of arm's reach in case you catch me on a bad day!
Erin, I want to "introduce you" to Sara Walker. I have been praying with her for some time now and have been thinking that you two ought to at least know about each other. There are similarities, both obvious and intangible, between you two that I think you both will find encouraging and nourishing. You can see her story here: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/sarawalker I've posted a like to this site to her journal as well. Praying and praising with you dear sister!!!! xxoo Mary
ReplyDeleteI just read her story and a few posts. She seems amazing & I'll be praying.
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