Thursday, February 2, 2012

Results!

Well, well, well!

When it was finally time for my appointment I was called back to the nurse's station to get my vitals. Dr. Rassam walked by and said, "Your PET scan! It's all gone, your cancer is gone and I can't explain it!" I jumped up and asked him to repeat it and he said, "well, there's a little in your lungs still."

We waited in the room for quite awhile and while we did, we prayed that he was wrong about it being in my lungs. I prayed that his eyes would be opened to what the PET scan results actually said. Finally, he walked in and that's exactly what happened! All the metastases are gone--it's gone from my spine ("impossible", they'd said!), GONE from my lungs (5 minutes earlier he'd said it was there, but I saw it in writing), lyphnodes are cancer-free, and just a tiny bit is left in my breast. He felt and said it's primarily fibrous tissue in that.

Yaacov was with me and we both said, "it's a miracle!" to which Rassam agreed.

He said there is no such thing as restaging me, I will just always have the diagnosis of Stage 4. But I know I don't have it. As of now, I will continue to follow the doctor's directions, but if God leads me to stopping the medications I will. So the plan is the same as before--12 weeks of this easy type of chemo, then discuss surgery, and be on a hormone forever. One step at a time though and that's praising God for being awesome, amazing, wonderful, wonderous, perfect and perfect and perfect and perfect.

For once I am actualy speechless. What He did for me is so unfathomable I'm still awestruck. Despite all my prayers I didn't exactly expect this to be the best day of my life. I just can't wrap my head around it. Why did He do this for me? How could He love me this much?

"Sing to the Lord, all the erth; proclaim his salvation day after day. Decare his glory among the nations, his marvelous deeds among all peoples. For great is the Lord and most worthy of praise; he is to be feared above all gods. For all the gods of the nations are idols, but the Lord made the heavens. Splendor and majesty are before him; strength and joy in his dwelling place. Ascribe to the Lord glory and strength, ascribe to the Lord the glory due his name. Bring an offering and come before him; worship the Lord in the splendor of his holiness." 1 Chron 16:23-29

"Give thaks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever. Cry out, "Save us,  God our Savior; gather us and deliver us from the nations, that we may give thanks to your holy name, that we may glory in your praise. Praise be to the Lord, the God of Israel, from everlasting to everlasting." 1 Chron 16: 34-36

"I will praise you, O Lord, among the nations; I will sing of you among the peoples. For great is your love, reaching to the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies. Be exalted, O God, above the heavens; let your glory be ver all the earth." Ps 57:9-11

"Praise the Lord. Praise God in his sancturary; praise him in his mighty heavns. Praise him for his acts of power; praise him for hs surpassing greatness. Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet, praise him with the harp and lyre, praise him with tambourine and dancing ,praise him with the strings and flute, praise him with the clash of cymbals, praise him with resounding cymbals. Let everything that has breath praise the Lord. Praise the Lord." Psalm 150

And by the way, God is good.

45 comments:

  1. I am so happy for you right now I can't describe!!! Praise the Lord that He is the true Physician and He has healed you!!!! I know that we do not really know each other, but as a sister in Christ, I am as happy for you as if you were my sister, flesh and blood! I will continue to pray for you and the treatment and that God will keep the cancer away now and forever! Your testimony is a true inspiration to us all! Thank you for allowing all of us to be a part of this wonderful miracle!

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  2. Ephesians 3:20-21

    New International Version (NIV)


    20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

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  3. I've been crying tears of joy for you since I heard the news! Praise God!!

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  4. Hallelujah! Praise the Lord. What a miracle. We will keep praying for the continued treatment, surgery as necessary, and complete recovery! Praise the Lord!

    Don't you just want to call the Texas doctors with these results?!

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  5. Crying in joy for you and your family right now. Praise God. This is wonderful, wonderful news.

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  6. We have been singing HIS praises at our house. What an awesome day! Praise God from whom all blessings flow. Erin, so many people have just witnessed God's miracle in your life. Thank you for sharing your faith with so many.

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  7. oh wow, Erin, i am soooooooooooo happy to read this today!!! I really hope you send the results to that texas doctor!!! thank goodness, Erin!! what wonderful news :)

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  8. Erin - I am one among many many women who have been interceding for you - here at Debra's church in Palm Harbor. When I read Debra's post literally seconds after she posted this morning - I burst into our Pastor's office and made him bring it up... He was in a meeting with another pastor and one of our leaders. HIS MOUTH DROPPED he couldn't even read it out loud, turned the laptop and had the other pastor read it aloud. Tears just flowed as we stopped and offered praise to God. Erin, we do so praise God and we thank you for standing firm, trusting God, stating and proclaiming His goodness, despite the circumstance. I am simply on the edge of my seat awaiting a visual on just how HE further plans to use this miracle to bring Himself glory. HALLELUJAH Our God reigns and our God heals!!!!!

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  9. aaaagghhhh! I am in tears at work. Praise be to God!!!

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  10. Dearest Erin, Words cannot describe how happy we are for you! I think of your beautiful family and my eyes fill with tears of joy. I am amazed and so grateful that you got this news! XOXOXO

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  11. Oh my goodness! I am so excited! I cant wait to tell Wyatt! He will be so excited! The LORD is so FAITHFUL! And i am so excited I cant wipe this smile off my face. Where are we celebrating?! So excited. Love, love, love how AWESOME God is and He allowed me to be a witness to a miracle. Thank you for being so faithful and letting us all follow this journey! Leslie James

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  12. Erin, I'm crying tears of joy. Tears of faith. Tears of confession for the poison of unbelief that so often dwells in my heart. Today God gave me a glimpse of Psalm 30:5. Weeping did tarry for a night, but O was there joy in the morrow!

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  13. OH PTL, PTL, PTL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am soo thrilled!!!!!! the LORD asks us only to BELIEVE; He is always Faithful. HE HEALED ALL WHEN HE WALKED THIS EARTH AND HIS WORD SAYS HE IS THE SAME YESTERDAY, TODAY AND FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOWEVER NOBODY AND I MEAN NOBODY KNOWS HOW HARD IT IS TO BELIEVE UNTIL THEY HAVE BEEN IN THAT SITUATION!!!!!!!!!!!! i am soo very proud of you and happy for your family. You chose Faith even though FEAR was knocking so hard it could bust down the door. it is only in EXPERIENCE that we truly learn to TRUST our GOD and that HIS WORD IS TRUE!!! plain and simple!!! We RECEIVE EACH AND EVERY PROMISE only BY GRACE THROUGH FAITH. we have nothing more or less to add. Yes, HE LOVES EACH OF US THAT MUCH!!!!! we need not ask why... only BELIEVE!!!!!!!!!
    Loving you and so joyous for and with you.

    tami byrd
    www.caringbridge.org/visit/blasebyrd

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  14. PRAISE! I knew it would happen. Because you were faithful and because He is good.

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  15. WOW. You truly inspire me! I could not be happier for you right now! You are living proof of the great things God can do!

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  16. ERIN! Hallelujah!!! Incredible! Amazing!

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  17. I knew it too. I was praying so hard and said but her children. You have to heal her for her children and I got chills then goosebumps then I totally knew God was answering your faith and so many prayers! Ah I have goosebumps right now. I hope to meet you someday. Amazing faith -- God is so good to us :) thank you so much for this insanely amazing witness to God's love and mercy. So happy for you.

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  18. Erin, when Debra first shared your news with our church I was feeling crushed for you. I do not even know you but it hit me like a ton of bricks and for a few days I felt like I was in this "funk" I could not get out of. Perhaps it is because I have two daughters close your girls ages and I just kept putting myself in your shoes and could not fathom how heartbreaking. I didn't keep up with your blog because it was difficult for me to read, I will admit. However, you have been on my mind EVERY SINGLE DAY since I heard a couple of months ago and I have consistently been sending prayers up for you through out my days. The past week I did start coming to your blog and reading your updates. When I read about you having a PET scan I checked it every single day waiting for news. I prayed for God to give you a miracle, I prayed for you to have LIFE with your babies and your husband, I prayed for wisdom for the doctors, I prayed for answers to your prayers. Not only is this a miracle for you, but it's a miracle for all of us who have daily been crying out to God for you. Just this morning I was asking God to remind me CONSTANTLY of Him, to give me motivation to be in His Word, just to keep me close to Him because it's so easy to get distracted in life. Your news was that reminder for me today!

    PRAISE GOD! HE IS SO GOOD!

    "You hem me in—behind and before;
    you have laid your hand upon me.
    Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too lofty for me to attain."
    psalm 139:5-6

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    1. "i SHALL NOT DIE, BUT LIVE, AND DECLARE THE WORKS OF THE LORD!!!!PSALMS 118:17

      Yes, Erin, you and Yaacov will stand before the people and declare the Mercy, Love and Goodness of God!!!

      PRAISE GOD FROM WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW.........

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  20. Erin, I'm not sure which FB friend posted your blog, but I have been following your story and praying for you even though we've never met.
    I am blown away by how BIG our God is and literally in tears over your AMAZING news.
    God is good, all the time, and yes, DAYENU!
    Thank you Jesus!

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  21. How faithless I am! I read your post two days ago and I hoped you would be right but I didn't really believe it possible. Praise God that He is faithful even when we are not. Praise God that He has given you faith that truly moved a mountain. Praise God that He has put this miracle on display that He might be glorified. Praise God that He has provided for you and your family in ways that are not humanly possible.

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  22. What a great joy God has brought through your suffering! May your story bring others to trust in his sovereignty that they may know him and experience the peace, hope and faith that you did in the midst of the storm. I am so excited for your deliverance!

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  23. Congratulations to you! Best wishes for a continual recovery and road to a chemo/cancer/treatment-free life!

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  24. I don't think I have ever witnessed such a miracle! Nor have I ever known anyone with your depth of faith. What an inspiration and lesson for us all.

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  25. What awesome news!!! It still remains, GOD IS GOOD!!! infact this is an understatement but for lack of the right words, let it be so!!! Erin I'm so happy for you, I'm particularly proud of you for holding on to God and for keeping up the faith, for proclaiming the Lord's goodness and His greatness openly! May He bring the work He began to completion and with its ending may a multitude of people be drawn to Him!!! Love and prayers, Betty and family!! Greetings to the girls and Yaacov.

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  26. Erin,
    I am speechless and in awe of the Mighty Power of Jesus!!!.. He truly is the Alpha and Omega.. the Beginning and the End... and we love HIM because HE first loved us..... what Majesty.. what Mercy... what Grace He has poured out.... not of our doing.... TOTALLY HIM..... I praise Jesus.. and I magnify HIS HOLY NAME for your healing!!!!!.... What an Awesome God HE IS!!!!!... I love you and Yaacov dearly....

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  27. Erin, how awesome that God has touched so many lives and hearts through you. I also go to church with your mil and have been following your journey via this blog. I have shed many tears with you and think about you daily. When I saw your Deborah the day you had your PET scan I told her how eager I was to hear the news. When I read the news today, I was so very grateful to our wonderful God and I'm rejoicing with you, your family and the extended family of believers who have heard of your plight and have been bringing you before the Throne of Grace. We will continue to do so!

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  28. Erin,
    my husband and I are good friends of josh and Tryna Atkins and they told us about you all and what you have been going through. we have been praying constantly and pleading with God to perform a miracle for you and your family. I have been following your blog and have been so inspired and encouraged by your faith. and when I heard today what your results were I was in tears as I shared with my husband of what God has done for you. He is truly awesome and loving and we are so thrilled that He has heard and answered so many prayers. what a great God we serve and to Him be all the glory! May God bless you and your family as you celebrate His work in your life!

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  29. Praise God!!!! Erin, I am so happy for you and Yaacov and the girls! I wish I could be there to celebrate with you. You have been in my prayers for months! God bless you and keep you always!

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  30. Hallelujah!!!! Rejoicing with you for your answer. Just shared it with my girls...we have been praying for you! God is so good! (I work at the desk during ballet on Wed.)

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  31. Heather T. is my good friend. She told me briefly about your story and I just read this. Wow. God is awesome. Prayers are so powerful, I know firsthand. Keep praying and living and you can do anything!

    Renee
    motherhoodmusicandbeer.blogspot.com

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  32. I started to write and tell you how we have prayed for you on Wednesday nights since we heard of your plight..and what we prayed...but it's not about us or the prayers. It's all about God. He is awesome! He gets all the glory!
    tom @ Trinity Community Church

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  33. We have been praying and rejoice in your wonderful news. God is so good! May He grant you many, many more years to be a mother to your girls as they grow up and to grow old with Yaacov. It is indeed time to celebrate!

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  34. I found out the news today and literally did a happy dance at work! Hallelujah!!!

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  35. Amazing!!! Erin, could not be happier that God had answered you & everyone elses prayers in this way, I have experienced my first miracle thru you & your situation, & while I am truly sorry for all you have endured, to have been a part of the prayers & reading your journey has been beyond incredible, words cannot describe....celebrating for you up in Michigan tonite! Please keep blogging & keep us posted on your continued healing!

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  36. Rejoicing with you! I have been praying for your COMPLETE healing! Praise God He is SO good! Even though we have never met, I know that one day we will be along side one another praising our heavenly father and worshiping at his feet.
    congratulations to you and your family!
    in Christ,
    MaryAnn Sharp from MI (Natalie Sharps mom in law) : )

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  37. Praises to our Great, Mighty, Merciful, Glorious, Precious, Loving, Miraculous Savior!! Whoop-Whoop!

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  38. Praise the Lord!!! God is good all the time!!!!

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  39. Ever since I got this wonderful news yesterday, I have been singing this worship song from church- "Our God is Greater,Our God is Stronger, God you are Higher than any other, Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God, Our God"- We are so overwhelmed with joy for you, Erin!

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  40. PRAISE THE LORD FOR HE IS GOOD . . . ALL THE TIME! Although I/we should be surprised, because THIS is the answer to our fervent prayers, I know I am blown away. I have witnessed divine healing before, but never this extreme. I am praising THE ONE who is STILL the Lord of ALL!!

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  41. Echoing everyone here. Praising our Lord!
    Erin, we are rejoicing with you!

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  42. I prayed that God would choose to glorify Himself through healing, and I am rejoicing with you and your family that He has decided that this is the best choice! I will continue to pray for you, and I will continue to praise God, too!!

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  43. Linking over from your friend's blog (Christina May Andrews) who had her link on Jen's Finding Heaven SDG link...

    So I am new to your story...but Praise the Lord. It is so good to hear that sometimes He still chooses to heal completely this side of heaven. What encouraging praise!!!

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