It's a new day! I woke up feeling much more peaceful about my prospects. It's Sunday so we went to church and everyone knew. I'm glad for the support but it's still awkward for Yaacov and me. It felt like a funeral where I'd lost a loved one. But then I realized it was me we were all mourning. Ouch.
I'm encouraged that I read it's pretty unlikely for the cancer to have spread already. That usually happens on the recurrence of breast cancer. We won't know until after the PET scan though. Plus, I've been on the losing side of every other battle with this thing so far.
I have to remember that although everything changed, nothing really changed. I still love and trust God. He is still my Lord and Savior, and He is mightier than cancer. If He wants to, He will heal me. If He chooses not to, He has a reason and the wisdom behind it is beyond my comprehension. But it's still a reason. The right reason, because God doesn't make mistakes. "But as for me and my house, we will worship the Lord", Joshua 24:15
1 Thess 5: 17-18 Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
Dear Erin,
ReplyDeleteI am so proud of you for your strength and determination and above all your FAITH in God! Indeed may His will be done. I do pray that all things will work together for your good because you love and trust God. May God continue to strengthen you and Yaacov and the precious girls and draw you closer to Him and to each other. Thank you for blessing my life!