Abigail has become afraid that I'm going to leave and never come back. I have no idea where that idea came from, but it could not be timed worse. I guess none of us should ever promise that won't happen, because we can't control everything. James 4:13-16 says, "Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.” I'm really aware of all that right now. I want to promise and assure her that I'll always return, but I just can't. Now or after I'm healed. I will settle for promising her that I would never purposely stay or go away from her.
The second chemo treatment went well and if I wasn't so tired I would be encouraged. The chemo nurse says I seem much better than the other people she gives these drugs (Thank-you, the Lord is my healer, Ex 15:26 and strength, Ex 15:2). Dr. Rassam noted my lump is much smaller, which means the chemo is working on the other parts of my body as well. He is really concerned about my going to Texas, thinks I should just do that as a last resort after standard treatment doesn't work. I see his point, but I know God wants me to go there. So maybe I'll get better results than the standard treatment. Or maybe I'll go and glorify God to all the people who need to hear about Him there. Maybe I'll be so humble that I'll get out of His way and He can use me in the most amazing ways that none of us would ever expect. All these options are amazing blessings, and I can't wait to see how He works. The appointment isn't scheduled just yet but it will be the week of January 9.
Romans 15:5-7 "May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you the same attitude of mind toward each other that Christ Jesus had, so that with one mind and one voice you may glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ."
Hello Erin,
ReplyDeleteMy name is MaryAnn and I am Natalie Sharp's mother in law. Natalie knows that I am a Chritian and believe in the power of prayer and healing through the Holy Spirit so she told me about your blog. I am praying for your complete healing, because I believe Cancer is from the enemy (satan) and that God's will is that you be well so you can be a momma to your children and a wife to your husband. My son in law works at a prayer center in Colorado Springs, a ministry of Andrew Wommack, I am sending along the phone number so you can call if you want for prayer and also the web site, Andrew has many wonderful teachings you can download for free, one I especially like is God Wants you well, a teaching on healing. I also enjoy listening to Bill Johnson from Redding California, he also has a powerful ministry on healings and miricles.....I willbe lifing you up in prayer and I pray that this info will be an encourgment to you as you walk through this most difficult time. I find your blog very inspiring, you are a strong woman of faith! God's Blessings on you!
Love in Christ
MaryAnn Sharp
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I am encouraged about the doctor's findings today. Praise God that there has already been noted improvement! Lots of love to you and your family!
ReplyDeleteGood news on Chemo #2, Erin - Do listen to the Holy Spirit; if He is leading you to go to Texas for the specialized treatment, "Go out with joy and be led forth in peace!" Isaiah 55:12a. Prayers of MANY will follow you.
ReplyDeleteBlessings, sister in Christ!
Erin, that is so encouraging to hear that the doctor thinks your tumor is already shrinking. I pray that this new round of chemo attacks it and the rest of the cancer even more, and I pray for strength for you to be able to withstand the side effects, and for them to be minimized. Praise God for He is guiding and sustaining you. Blessings to you, dear one.
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