Friday, December 23, 2011


What in the world is God doing? The Bible is full of all these warnings about how believers on earth will be hated and all that. But in what should be the darkest, loneliest time of my life He is showing me nothing but love. Love through His people. Through people like you, who read this, stop me at stores, call me, leave or send me things. People who I know and maybe even moreso from those I don't.

When I first had children I thought I got a pretty good handle on God's love. He loves us even more than we love our kids, and that amount is far beyond measure. I get that, cognitively. But it's hard to process. Like right now, I feel like if I'm going to go through this storm, I should be isolated, miserable and despised. I should be feeling like Job when he's lost it all. But instead I've never felt so complete. I am showered with blessings and feel so loved. What kind of storm is filled with love? But that's what this is. A love storm. I have to remember this. To embrace it instead of questioning it. I don't need to wonder about the ending, just to enjoy today.

Deuteronomy 8:14-17 "be sure you do not feel self-important and forget the Lord your God who brought you from the land of Egypt, the place of slavery, and who brought you through the great fearful desert of venomous serpents and scorpions, an arid place with no water. He made water flow from a flint rock and fed you in the desert with manna (which your ancestors had never before known) so that he might by humbling you test you and eventually bring good to you. Be careful not to say, “My own ability and skill have gotten me this wealth.”

1 comment:

  1. Merry Christmas, Erin. We will be saying extra prayers for you, Yaacov, and your two precious children over the next few days. I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling the love!