BEST DAY SO FAR

Chemo treatment #4. The best I expected was to go in quickly, hear my lump is very small and get a quick dose of the "red devil juice" (they call it that, I don't). I was already excited because after this I have just 12 weeks of a gentler drug.


God had better plans for me today. I asked Dr. Rassam about his recommendation for my surgery and out of nowhere he mentioned that it might turn out that I actually have stage 3 instead of stage 4 cancer! That is literally the difference between a death sentence and a curable illness! We scheduled a PET scan for Thursday (1/26), and I will get the results within a week after that. I'm so excited, so excited, so excited.


I know some of you will think it's a bad idea for me to be excited about this, because I should actually expect the worst. However, I don't think that's biblical. How can I have all this hope and joy but stifle it in case I get disappointed? First of all, I would be doing that just to protect myself. I don't need protecting, that's God's job! Ps 127:7 says, "The Lord will keep you from all harm--He will watch over your life." I also don't want to  think it will be bad because that's a lack of faith. I believe God will heal me. I don't know that this is the start of it, but it very well could be. There are many cases in which this happens. Instead of sudden healing, it's gradual, with restaging to lower and lower stages until it's gone,. Then the doctors say it was due to misdiagnoses. In my case, three oncologists reviewed the case and told me unequivically, "there is a 0% chance you will be cured of cancer". We'll know the truth--that God healed me.


Anyway, it hasn't happened yet, but I'm hoping and praying that it will. This is THE time I need everyone we can to pray. I know it's selfish but I also know a ton of people have offered and are praying already, so this is really specific. At this point, it's the most important, time-sensitive prayer I've ever had. This could be the beginning of my healing! Please, please pray and ask those people you have praying for us that: the results of the next PET scan will accurately demonstrate that there is no cancer beyond my breasts. My lungs, spine, and all other bones and organs are entirely cancer free. I'm so very hopeful that God will choose now to answer this prayer. Please remember that this is the time to BELIEVE God will answer. James 1:6 "But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind." That belief is called faith, and James 5:15 says, " And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven."


Many thanks for the prayers and support, I love you all!